Tuesday, February 3, 2009

missing him

so i just went to ex-bf's facebook to say hey (we are still friends, im not crazy stalker)...sometimes i really miss that boy. i mean, i am definitely ok with being just friends, and i know that is what needed to happen. i could see that pretty soon after breaking up.

still, sometimes i miss being with him, and miss what we had. we were friends before we dated, and so becoming closer just made it better. i liked that. i liked that he wrote music. i liked that he loved god. i liked that he would tell me he liked my hair when it was all crazy and messy. i liked that he used the word gorgeous when he complemented me. i liked that he was cute. i liked that i was dating someone i have had a crush on since 9th grade. i even kinda liked that we had dated before in h.s. i liked that the future didnt freak me out with him.

i liked all those things, and i miss all those things.

sometimes i just miss him.

but i am glad that we are still friends. and im glad that i have all of those things plus so much more to look forward to when i finally find that person i will spend forever with.

the day i find that is a day i am looking forward to.

until then i suppose i will miss him every now and then, be content with the joys my life currently has, and pray god doesnt wait too long to put that guy in my life

3 comments:

DramaticlyCorekt said...

i enjoy watching you grow as a person. it's inspiring.

Lucas said...

That is such a blessing that you guys can still be friends. In truth.

I'm sorry for those times where you miss him.

Courtney said...

arent you lucky to be content! what a blessing to find that.
and i think the "God don't wait" prayer is a feeling amongst oh so many people all over, you arent alone in that
je t'aime