Thursday, April 30, 2009

my life


not good enough for boys
not good enough for the musical

too bad everyone else i know is good enough to be cast in the musical
and everyone else is liked

and everyone else is happy

tonight i am not happy

but its fine

i'll pretend to be happy later

im glad school is almost over...that will be a good day

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

dear kris (and anyone else wondering)

i was serious (not sarcastic) in that last blog
i wanted to be secretary so i am actually excited and thankful


also, i think we have awesome new club officers who (at least at the moment) seem very dedicated to helping make this club great...or at least work its way up from what it has been in the past.

last year's officers did a great job at getting some things done and trying, and i think this next year will be even better

lets make cp/apo something people actually WANT to be a part of!!

(alright, my speech is over now)

Monday, April 27, 2009

thank you

dear members of cp/apo

thank you for voting me your secretary for the 2009-2010 school year


Thursday, April 23, 2009


so much to say, no words to say them with.
there are things i want to say, but cant because of other eyes
there are things i want to say, but cant because i wouldnt know how
there are things that i dont even know i want to say but that are there

so instead of saying any of them, here are some lyrics from a song that i very much enjoy

Sometimes in the morning i am petrified and can't move
Awake but cannot open my eyes
And the weight is crushing down on my lungs i know i can't breath
And hope someone will help me this time
Your mother's still calling you insane and high
Swearing it's different this time
And you tell her to give in to the demons that possess her
And that godnever blessed her insides
Then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things
And crawl back into bed to dream of a time
When your heart was open wide and you loved things just because
Like the sick and the dying

And sometimes when you're on you're really fucking on
And your friends they sing along and they love you
But the lows are so extreme that the good seems fucking cheap
And it teases you for weeks in its absense
But you'll fight and you'll make it through
You'll fake it if you have to
And you'll show up for work with a smile
And you'll be be better you'll be smarter
More grown up and a better daughter
Or son and a real good friend
And you'll be awake and you'll be alert
You'll be positive though it hurts
And you'll laugh and embrace all your friends
And you'll be a real good listener
You'll be honest you'll be brave
You'll be handsome you'll be beautiful
You'll be happy

Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
To the cries and the wails of the valley below
Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
And you'll fight it you'll go out fighting all of them...

A Better Son / Daughter
Rilo Kiley

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

oh my life

soooooo i will be a happy person when this website design for internet comm class is DONE!!!

uuuhhhhh i can not even begin to explain.

i am very ready for school to be over!

on the 8th of may i will be turning 21!!!!
on that day i get to see RENT (again) with my wonderful friend james from home!!
and his b-day is two days before mine so it will be a birthday celebration for the both of us!!!! YIPPIE!!

then on the 10th of may i will be getting on a plane to go overseas to scotland and england for PIPER TOUR!!!!
i am sooooooooooooooooooooooooo freakin excited about that trip, i can hardly believe it is coming up so soon!!!!
it will be a good weekend.

rent and overseas wonderfulness....



i just have to survive the semester
and hopefully get some grades up...
i would like to end with A's and B's....*cross some fingers*

Friday, April 10, 2009

dear computer

load my dining room pictures faster!!!!
i would like to go to bed.

your owner

Thursday, April 9, 2009

spring sing

united we stand, divided we fall.

well we only have to stand united for 3 more shows!

im sooo tired. i mean, i know that i am not out there on the stage dancing...but we are running the show the entire time back stage and getting clubs in and out and so on. there an hour at least before and who knows how long after. blah. im glad i get paid :-)

also, i will not want to blow up another balloon or hear another balloon POP for a long time after spring sing!!

scapin is this week...hope they all do wonderfully this week! i cant see it till next week. so im glad they are having shows next weekend so spring singers can come to the show. i am very excited to see it!!

i want to sleep....we should get a long weekend after spring sing.

really this is random, but i just felt a need to blog

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

j'aime le francais

i went to the french bible study tonight and really enjoyed.
while its true that i didnt understand every word i sang, or every word they read from the bible section (although, i did have my english bible right there beside me too), i enjoyed it.

i want to keep taking french class (which i intend on doing while im here)
i want to be fluent in french!
i want to go to France!

i really want to go on the summer french campaign next summer!!

i am going to do everything i can to go on that french campaign next summer. that is my goal for the future.

L'espoir est le rêve d'une âme éveille