dear atlantic sea,

me and you are not friends.
please get smaller or something

sincerely,
megan

why still?

even after almost a year, it still brings tears to my eyes...

why

even after knowing its probably for the best, it still makes me sad...

why

...remembering the past can suck

passions...

i am doing a standardized patient thing for the PA program in the next couple of weeks where i act like a patient with certain conditions and the PA students get practice doing what they do. well, being there (and that walk in the science/math building) made me realize how much i really missed taking math and science classes. i really enjoyed that stuff. and one day i would love to be in the field of medicine. being a nurse or something in the medical field is something that i really want to do some day...

some day...

right now though, i cant pass up my passion of theatre. i really do love everything about this art. even the parts that i dont like i can find joy in...its crazy how much i want to be successful however i get involved!! i just spent way to much time looking at spring awakening feeds on youtube and everytime i watch theatre clips or behind the scenes things my passion is just fed. i LOVE it! it inspires me to take singing lessons, to take dance lessons, to work out and stay active and in shape, to audition and take every opportunity i can get! makes me want to give everything i have to any job or part i get; because there is no small part.

i pray that god gives me the chance to do what i dream of and what i love...

harding

while walking through the science and bible building today for work i realized that i really do like harding. not just because the campus is beautiful (especially during these summer times when everything is green), not just because of the great people, friends, and relationships i have gained while being here; but because it really is a good school.
it might not be the greatest school and it might have some ridiculous rules, but its a good school.
its hard to really see that during the school year with class work and friends to cloud the picture.
but when walking through an almost empty building, you recall the feelings of walking through those halls for class, the good and bad times spent in those classes, the teacher you had, the friends you made...

summer after freshman year i almost transferred...it was actually something i gave alot of thought.

im glad i didnt. ... i would have enjoyed the other school and good memories and relationships and friends would have been made there too ... but im glad i stayed

i wouldnt have it any other way

one of the greatest songs ever written by man

Well I don't know if I'm wrong
Cause she's only just gone
Here's to another relationship
Bombed by excellent breed of gamete disease
I'm sure when I'm older I'll know what that means
Cried when she should and she laughed when she could
Here's to the man with his face in the mud
And an overcast play just taken away
From the lover's in love at the centre of stage yeah
Loving is fine if you have plenty of time
For walking on stilts at the edge of your mind
Loving is good if your dick's made of wood
And the dick left inside only half understood her
What makes her come and what makes her stay?
What make the animal run, run away yeah
What makes him stall, what makes him stand
And what shakes the elephant now
And what makes a man?
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know
No I don't know you any more
No, no, no, no...
I don't know if I'm wrong
'Cause shes only just gone
Why the fuck is this day taking so long
I was a lover of time and once she was mine
I was a lover indeed, I was covered in weed
Cried when she should and she laughed when she could
Well closer to god is the one who's in love
And I walk away cause I can
Too many options may kill a man
Loving is fine if it's not in your mind
But I've fucked it up now, too many times
Loving is good if it's not understood
Yeah, but I'm the professor
And feel that I should know
What makes her come and what makes her stay?
What make the animal run, run away and
What makes him tick apart from him prick
And the lonelier side of the jealousy stick
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know
No I don't know, I don't know, I don't know
No I don't know, I don't know, I don't know
Hell I don't know you any more
No, no, no no...
Well I don't know if I'm wrong
'Cause she's only just gone
Here's to another relationship
Bombed by my excellent breed of gamete disease
I finished it off with some French wine and cheese
La fille danse
Quand elle joue avec moi
Et je pense que je l'aime des fois
Le silence, n'ose pas dis-donc
Quand on est ensemble
Mettre les mots
Sur la petite dodo

Damien Rice--The Professor

the closing of another school year

wow...it is finals week of spring semester already
crazy how time passes. at some points moving sooo quickly, and i some points taking forever to pass. this semester/year has seemed long, yet at the same time i cant believe it is already over.
oh man.

finals week is upon us.
i have already taken one test....none tomorrow (just studying and packing for me)...and then 2 on wednesday and two on thursday and i am out of here!!
home for almost 2 days to celebrate my birthday (MAY 8TH!!! 21!) and then back to searcy to leave for scotland and england.

i am so excited!

this has been a crazy semester. lots of drama. but even more good times. and i have made some great relationships this year/semester. ones that i hope i will never loose!

also, 7 minutes then it is my bedtime, so i am out. just a short sweet post :)

my life

...

not good enough for boys
not good enough for the musical

too bad everyone else i know is good enough to be cast in the musical
and everyone else is liked

and everyone else is happy

tonight i am not happy

but its fine

i'll pretend to be happy later

im glad school is almost over...that will be a good day