Final post for this specific blog

Alright, well, as promised I have started a blog for my 5th and final year here at Harding University.

The url is: http://collegelifeyear5.blogspot.com/

...or...you can just look at my other blogs on my profile and go to the new one.

I probably wont update a ton right now because i currently have no internet in my apartment :( womp womp

BUT soon and very soon that will change

:-)

SUMMER is coming to an END

How I know summer is coming to an end:
1) tomorrow starts the last weekend of shows for SSDT (Searcy Summer Dinner Theatre)
2) in less than 2 weeks I move into my apartment for the fall school year
3) I am itching to start this semester! classes, friends, pipers, musical...everything

Im sure there are a few more reasons but thats enough for me.

My friend/roommate CARA GOT ENGAGED LAST NIGHT!!! Oh man, I love it, I'm so excited for her. She is a wonderful person who has found a wonderful man to share her life with. Good stuff.

Also, new school year means NEW BLOG!!
I didnt make a new blog last year, and probably for the best too, considering I didnt blog much...ever...haha
But this year WILL be different! I am determined!
A new blog will be made, blogs will be written, and I will have an amazing semester full of fun/friends/adventures to fill the blog with :-)

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Currently I am sitting in the box office for SSDT playing around and doing stuff on the computer. Like every time I work at the box office. I've only been here for 40 mins and there is just nothing to do. Oh well, I dont mind being completely bored and getting paid for nothing too much.

The summer is almost over, and I can NOT wait for what this semester has instore!!

Have a great day! <3

that strange little feeling

So...have you ever had that feeling like you should be doing something but you have no idea what that thing is.

I have had that feeling all day today.

I feel like I should be making To-Do lists, or writing things in a calendar, or scheduling something...or DOING...SOMETHING.

I dont know, but its driving me crazy.

Maybe it is just me being ready for school and actually needing to make a to-do list because i have things to-do.

blah!

summer!

Vacation with the Wallings

Well, I just got back from my nearly week vacation with Riley and his family. I joined the whole gang at the beach for a few days before heading off for the rest of my stay at their house in N.C.

My vacation was wonderful!! I am becoming more comfortable with his family, which is always a good thing, and I think that feeling goes both ways. It was nice to be in a mutually "new" place (as opposed to at their house for the whole time). And, of course, I LOVED being able to be with Riley everyday!
I miss him so much everyday we are not together, and I am so glad every chance we get to see each other (especially as of this past semester and summer, with it all being long distance). Good things are in store for the two of us; I just know it :-)

Now just two weekends left for the summer theatre, and moving into my apartment for the school year on the 10th, and then home for a couple weeks, and then school time!!
I am really looking forward to this school year and everything it has to offer :-)

sometimes you feel like a nut...sometimes you dont

ya know...
i really dont like this long distance thing.

sometimes its just so hard to truly appreciate and only think about the amazing thing you already have when they arent right there with you.

and then you feel bad for ever letting a thought like that cross your mind.

just goes to show how much i have to grow thats for sure
but i look forward to growing and continuing to learn all about my amazing thing :)

god provides....right?

....yeah.....

i dont know how im going to pay for school this year.....

apparently no one thinks i deserve financial help at all

.....oh well.

here's to being in debt...lots and lots of debt...

life gets better, one day at a time

tomorrow i leave spring piper tour!!! this semester has definitely been lacking in piper time, but we are catching up, and what better way to catch up on missed times than to go on a tour for the better part of a week!
I am excited and so ready to spend time with "family," and time loving on hundreds of kids!

also coming soon is the arrival of Riley back onto the soil of america. i can not even begin to express how ready i am for him to be back. i dont want to sound like "that girl" or anything, but having your boyfriend gone for a whole semester really just SUCKS. i didnt have my best friend, the person i vent too, the person who calms me down and takes my stress away, the person who makes me so happy. and without him it has been a VERY LONG semester. but he is coming back tomorrow, and soon back to me.
before today i was honestly pretty nervous about it. alot of time has passed, growing has happened, and emotions have changed since we were together and i didnt know how all of this would play into us being together again. obviously we want to be together, but...its just hard to explain in words. however, i got to talk to Riley tonight via skype/googlemail chat and i feel much better about everything.
and even more ready for him to be back on campus!!

besides the busy-ness that comes with the end of the year. that is my life.

9 DAYS!!!

Riley comes back to the united states of america in 9 days!!! (and now that its past midnight, 8 days kinda)

It is so close!! yet still far enough away for me to hate it!

This semester has been SO LONG and filled with highs and lows, but the biggest low is the fact that I cant share any of these times with Riley :-(

After hanging out with someone nearly every day last semester, its tough when they are gone. and especially with limited or no communication.

But just 9 more days. that is all I have left until I can once again talk to riley on the phone. and then just a long week later, we will finally, once again be together in person.

it will be a great day filled with constant anxiety until he pulls into my dorm parking lot, and most of all, lots of happiness!

just 9 more days
9

i can do that....

Vienna

Slow down
You crazy child
Your so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you’re so smart, then tell me why are you still so afraid
Where’s the fire? What’s the hurry about?
You better cool it off, before you burn it out
You got so much to do, but only so many hours in a day
But you know that when the truth is told,
That you can get what you want or you can just get old
Your gonna kick off before you even get half way through
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you

Slow down
Your doin fine
You can’t be everything you wanna be before your time
Although it’s so romantic on the borderline tonight, tonight
To bad that is the life you lead
You’re so ahead of your self that you forget what you need
Though you can see when your wrong, you can’t always see when your right
You got your passion, you got your pride
But don’t you know that only fools are satisfied
Dream on! But don’t imagine they’ll all come true
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you

Slow down
You crazy child
And take the phone off the hook and disappear for awhile
It’s alright. You can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you.
That u can get what you want or you can just get old
Your gonna kick off before you even get half way through
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you
Why don’t you realize, Vienna waits for you
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you

stupid atlantic ocean once again!!

i am hating the atlantic ocean for a far different reason than i hated it over the summer...well thats not true...very similar reason infact...but a more serious one!

ugh!

i just want it to be april
i just want to be able to have things to do outside of class and rehearsal (like on the weekends when i usually just sit around or do work)
i just want to talk to my boyfriend
i just want to see him
i just want to give him a hug and a kiss

i just want to be able to tell him all the things i think...but that cant happen. it cant happen while he is overseas and it cant happen until these things are ready to be said.


for now i would just settle with april
and NOT FREE TRAVEL!! :-(

blah blah blah

its always great to find out you dont really have the good friends you thought you had

oh well

not like i did anything to help the matter

this semester...just stole everything except my last breath

friends

soooo i just sometimes want to talk to people again. .... not people in general...specific people that i just miss talking to sometimes

oooooo life

oh wells.

also, i have decided that i dont want to make another blog for the 4th year...so this is about to be 3rd and 4th...blogger can just get over it

:-P

uncertainties of life

there are so many

things you just wish you could know
wish you could be sure of
wish you could see more clearly

such is life i suppose

perhaps...

i was talking to a friend of mine the other day about being single and such and he said "maybe we are single because we arent ready yet. like the reason why you dont give a ten year old a ferrari"
i thought about that.
it made sense.
maybe we arent ready. or, maybe we are, but the person we are supposed to be with isnt.
and until we (or they) are ready its just a lonely waiting game.
relying on god.
praying that you and the other person out there will grow and become ready soon, so that you can end the loneliness and start a life together
a life of love; love given by god



...not saying that being single is awful and that being in a relationship makes life worth it. because thats just simply not true.
but when you feel like you are ready to start that journey; or at least get closer to it than you currently are; sometimes being single just simply sucks...

stuck in my head

"i go about my business, im doing fine. besides what would i say if i had you on the line? same old story not much to say. hearts are broken everyday"

lately i have been in such a jewel mood

good summer days

today was good. one of those days summer was meant for.

slept in. (like everyday this week actually)
went to little rock with friends. while there we got to meet seth after getting back from his summer in GREECE!! that lucky duck. that was great. we ate at the wonderful red lobster as well :-) yummy yummy shrimp :-)
came back home and picked up courtney
watched some SYTYCD and then "when harry met sally" which has some of the cutest lines and best scenes ever in a film :-)

good times all around.

tomorrow i think its lake day!!!

and then driving home for a week before starting another semester :-)

wonder

sooo at work there was something that i wanted to blog about....but i have now forgotten what that something is....

oh well

i just had two tacos...at 1 in the morning :-)
they were good

yay for taco bell still being open late in this town that shuts down at 10 :-)

dear stephanie meyer

please fall back in love with writing edward's story and finish "midnight sun"

the first 264 pages are great and i would really appreciate knowing the rest of the story via him.

k thanks,
--a big fan--

dear...

dear life.
why are you so expensive?

dear money.
i hate you.


with all my heart,
poor college student

summer things i miss

while i have been loving this summer, and i love spending it with my friends and in theatre and working...

i have really missed summer things like church camp and vbs and summer devos with a youth group every week.

i miss those great summer things :-/

one day we will be reunited...even if it means going to church camp with my kids..haha
...a long long time from now of course