today

sooo today i woke up after sleeping for FOURTEEN HOURS!!
i went to take a nap at 6...and didnt really wake up till 8 the next morning.
crazy.

i have the hiccups right now

also i want apple juice

i got to talk to my friend lucas tonight. that was nice. havent heard from him in awhile. he is coming into town this weekend and i wont even be here. sad.

but i am looking forward to going home. that will be nice. also sad austin wont be able to join me, but there is lots of laundry to do, so eh, i can do that.

greys anatomy was SO good tonight!!! the final scene (for those of you that havent seen it i wont spoil) was the cutes and best thing ever!! so good.

i am ready for summer...i think this summer i will read "angels & demons"

the end

titles are over-rated

all i wanted to say is that this weekend was good.

i mean, i didnt do any school work, so that wasnt necessarily good. but honestly, who likes doing schooling on the weekend? certainly not me.

friday night started out quiet, but yay for austin calling me and ending that quiet night.

so i hung out with friends all friday and saturday and then sunday till 7 when i finally came home and chilled in my living room. which is what i am currently doing.

it was good.

i like just hanging out and being with people i like.

thats all :-)

what comments do...

"...i love you and God loves you. be His best friend for a while, see who else he brings into your life!"

this was part of a comment posted by a friend in reference to my last mopey (mo-pee) blog.
thanks friend

this was one of the best comments you could have sent me. in fact, i always like your comments. but me liking your comments is besides the point.
the point is that you are right.

i really need to crack down on myself for the rest of the semester, and really just starting now until the rest of always.
i need to focus.
focus on school. force myself to work work work.
focus on health. set time to work out and be healthy and actually stick to it!
focus on sleep discipline. do school and working out and everything else in a timely manner so sleep can ensue before 2 a.m. (obviously that wont happen tonight). stick to a cut off time. getting sleep makes me happy...therefore i should actually get some!
most importantly
focus on god.

i have realized that i talk to god when i need something or when something is going well and i want it to continue, or when i want something from god, or because a situation is...however it happens to be. and while talking to him for those things is a good thing and i shouldn't stop doing that; that shouldn't be the only reason i pray or spend time with him.
the sermon today at church was about walking with god. while i cant remember the catchy acronym he had for WALK, i did retain the important fact that walking with god is a constant, everyday, and every situation activity.
and while i know that, and have known that and heard that before, today with other recent thoughts it just hit me harder. it actually hit home for me today.
god should be involved in everything i do.
i should pray to him always, for everything. walking to class, going to bed, when there is a problem, when there is a praise, when i need to tell someone something, when i have a spare minute in the day.
i should read his word. god cant talk to us if we arent reading what he is saying. god cant be a part of our lives if we dont know how we can have him in our lives. you cant walk and abide in god if you are not reading and abiding in his word. how can i claim to be a christian and claim to be living in christ if i dont know what god has to say about the matter. when i dont read how to do that and i dont read what he has written and preserved for us to know. the wisdom and knowledge it takes to do that.

so here goes trying

here goes re-building my life

here goes disciplining myself and constantly having to strive and push for what i want.

here goes becoming best friends with god (and becoming a better 'me' in the process)

pray for me. i'll be trying, but it will be hard.
xoxo

self discovery

so this is a theory i have about...me

i dont make a very good best friend.
ive decided
i just dont think i have what it takes to be one. whatever that is.
i can have good friends or close friends for a while and then...they find someone...better. or someone that they can always be friends with and its always good. or whatever. i dont even know
i dont know why or what it is
i just dont think im...cabable. or whatever.

its like im one of those "part of the group" friends. but thats it. just there because somehow im a part.



i didnt say this was a very fully developed theory.
theory non the less

a theory that i see proving itself true too many times.

Spring Break so far

friday i went to OC to see my friend carla and their spring sing. it was a great weekend. carla's club, iota kappa phi, did SOOOOO well!!! they won 4 faculty awards (half, and the best half) and they got 2nd over all!!! w000t! and its only the club's second year. they are pretty much amazing.
but yeah. i got to see that and see her and other cool people. and it was great. i love oc. really do. so that was fun.

then i went home for a few days and slept.
lots of sleeping.
i like sleeping. its great.

now its wednesday night and i am with the rest of the gang (kevin, kris, stephen, courtney, amber, ashley, and mary) in eustace texas at ashley's house. tonight was just church, movie, and friends. quiet, but nice night. its going to be a fun and interesting next couple of days.

tomorrow night we are going to purgatory. yay.

also, i love kevin

now, bye bye
xoxo

Dear Megan (thaaaaaat's me)

dear megan,

1) you can not do it all. one life is not long enough.

2) spring break is just two days away. STUDY for this test tomorrow! and stay FOCUSED!

3) trust god. he hears/answers prayers but he also has his own timing.

4) hang out with adam more often. lunch was fun.

5) be a servant. love your friends. love your "neighbors." love everyday god gives you (or...something about everyday god gives you)

6) spring break will be fun! yay!

7) MAIL CAMPAIGN LETTERS!

very sincerely,
yourself

the price you pay

sooo getting caught up at school means not being able to do anything else...like watch tv...grays anatomy for instance.

oh dear oh dear.

BUT good news is that i believe i am almost caught up...

then after that i should be able to do other things...that arent school related :-)

today hasnt been the funnest day. but its been a productive day.

also today involved making a to-do list and getting class notes finally organized :-) doing these things made me happy

"the secondary people"

in Elizabethtown this is what she called herself and him.

yep.

but good movie. might watch it.