long drives and late night talks

"And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast."
--1st Peter 5:10

After a small venting text message to my lovely friend kevin about the array of emotions i was going through at the time, he sent me this scripture. and for that i am thankful.
This past week i have really tried to give all my emotions and "baggage" to God. Whenever i get really bogged down with everything going on in my head right now i have tried to remember to just say a small prayer and release it to him. Sometimes this is hard, and i feel like instead of those emotions getting released up to god they get bottled inside and (like tonight) need to be released. So i went for a drive, and text kevin, and that is the first part of what he sent me. and it just reminded me that god is still there. and i thank kevin for always reminding me that god is still there.

after driving tonight i went to the colvins house and adam offered me icecream (which i accepted) and we tried to work on bible homework. got most of the reading i needed to do done, but we mostly ended up talking the whole time. most of it was silly meaningless stuff; but as i was reading the book for bible ("more ready than you realize") we started having more meaningful conversation about god and faith and church and life...and it was really nice. we talked about that till it was time for curfew...i enjoyed it. i like talking about things the mean something in life.

anyway. that was my night. a little harder than the past few, but good in their own way.

numb might be better than this

sunday my heart broke just a bit...

something unexpected happened...something i definitely did not see coming...

something that hurt...maybe more that i thought it would as well...but then again, maybe not...

today was better than yesterday and im sure tomorrow will be better than today. im healing and living life like i can. i know god is there, just its really hard to see the lesson learned right now. right now i am pretty sure i could have gone without this pain...i dont know. i just have to put everything in him. which i am constantly learning how to do...

right now i just need his strenght and comfort...to feel his arms around me, letting me know it will be ok...

and thank you for all of my absolutely amazing friends that have been there for me. i truely have the best friends ever. even the ones that arent here physically have sent their love, and i know things will be ok...eventually...

thoughts while waiting

We had piper call backs today and we picked the new members for our troupe afterward and we decided on two amazing guys!!! i am super excited to start this year, it is going to be a good one. (of course i am sad that some people didnt make it, because everyone who got called back was awesome and are really great people...but you cant have a troupe of 20 people. just doesnt work).

anyway. soooo yeah. that was very exciting. and pretty much the only exciting thing that has happened this weekend.

its raining really really hard right now and the wind is blowing like crazy...hurricane ike...tisk tisk...i just looked, and its actually NOT raining much, the wind is just going crazy.

right now i am waiting for matty key to call me...silly boy who is polite and doesnt like talking on the phone when he is chillin with a group of friends...a group of friends i wish i could be chillin at starbucks with too cause i love and miss them all...but i would like to speak with my boyfriend before i go to bed. which might be soon because im tired and i have church in the morning...

lets see...courtney came and hung out in my room for a little while tonight. i enjoyed that. i like hanging out with courtney...

i have a lighting design test tomorrow. first one. im kinda nervous. all that we have talked about so far is electrical theory and electrical stuff like that...which i am not completely lost on...but...yeah. i dont know. sometimes i feel out of my league in that class...but after talking with Lynn, i think thats just me. i probably just freak out about things for no reason... :-)

i have a few time consuming things to do tomorrow...not really alot of things i dont think...but time consuming. because those things involve reading...i told katie i would hang out with her tomorrow...i dont know if that is going to happen or not...maybe if i go over to her apartment to study lighting design with adam katie and i can have some time to talk and catch up...but not lots probably...we shall have to see and hope for the best. i feel bad cause i dont get to see her very much anymore. and i want to, i really do. but i am busy, and i dont always feel like going out after getting off work. i feel like eating and then doing some homework and yeah. chilling in my living room. hopefully as the year progresses i will be able to see her more. and when the musical is over i wont have work for that...so that will give me about 6 or more extra hours a week. thats nice!

thats about all
xoxo

2 down 2 to go

Yet another year of school at Harding University has started....

so far so...busy...
but good.

There is alot of stuff going on right now and with the level of tiredness i have and the music leah has playing in the back ground im not really sure if i can complete this blog as first hoped...

but i will get to it soon and very soon.
i am actually going to be in town this weekend (first so far). so i SHOULD have time to do a little internetting (since i honestly have had close to no time on the computer so far). but i cant make any promises considering the reason i havent been able to post a blog yet is because of the amount of time i do NOT have right now...

and its only the third week of school...

oh my life...

:-)